This is my first shot at doing a blog...

I'm thinking that this will be my place to rant.

My first rant: how the price of infant formula is criminal.

It started with my son Lawrence born back in 2014. I was so excited to have him and to start breastfeeding (hello?! It's free, and you can lose weight doing it.) It didn't work out. He bit me, I didn't have the patience, and I found myself beginning to resent him. Those were major red flags. I only lasted a week or two exclusively nursing.  A few months later I was diagnosed with postpartum depression. I had pumped for a little while but dried up because I had to lose a good amount of weight...I am in the military so you should know we have to be in standards.

Anyways, I started formula feeding and that was that. Felt a little guilt but its ok he's smart, thriving and so happy.

Fast forward to 2016. I have my daughter Kalvyn. Due to my first bad experience and being on antidepressants, I was understandably leery about breastfeeding. So straight to formula it was. With two in diapers I will say HOLY FUCK THIS SHIT IS EXPENSIVE! It doesn't start to hit you until the second kid. Why in the holy hell does it have to be damn near $30 a can?! No we don't qualify for  WIC. We can afford that much but it's still kicking our ass. It's almost like punishment for being unable to breastfeed. No wonder it's kept locked up in some stores. Way to exploit new mothers. As if the dirty looks and side eyes in public when I'm mixing powder into water aren't enough...

Also I didn't notice how many sanctimommies there were until I got pregnant with my daughter. But that is for a different day.